Lately, I haven’t been very inspired.
Not just with blogging, because that has always been fairly easy for me to do, even when I am not particularly writing about anything. I just feel “blah”. There is nothing to do with life right now. I am home everyday, which I hate. My husband is home too, and while I don’t hate that…it gets to be a little monotonous. There is the good morning kiss. Then he works from home all day. While I get to physically “see” him, we don’t get to hang out together. I miss that. Soon he leaves for California, the sight of his next contract. I don’t know if that is a good thing or not. Maybe it will inspire me to get up and find a job. Right now, I don’t feel like working. I don’t feel like doing much of anything other than eating and sleeping.
I have to admit, I’m not very happy with life right about now.
There are things going on, certainly. There are always things going on in this house…but nothing I have paid much attention to. I haven’t been taking my anti-depressants the way I should. Okay, not at all. I really should be taking them. Maybe my moods will get better. I just have been shying away from them because I feel like they “dull” my personality. Then again, I’ve been pretty blah as of late…so I guess it wouldn’t matter much.
The highlight of the month was my high school reunion. Since then, it’s all been pretty well downhill from there. I just wish that something would suddenly make me burst out of bed and say YEE HAW…now THIS is worth leaving my bed for. But there’s nothing right now.
Even typing this is boring the shit out of me. I can only imagine what someone reading it would think.
So, with that in mind, I am going to go back to bed. Hopefully something will pull me out of my self-imposed little prison in the next couple of weeks. Maybe I will join my husband in California for a week or so. That might do it.
Then again…they have a big hotel bed there too.
In the interim, I find myself playing this song over and over and over because it makes me happy. Fuck everyone that hates Michael Jackson. I don’t care who you are…you can’t listen to this song without bopping your head a little. And I need a good bopping right about now: